Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Shouldn't it feel more official?

After taking the home pregnancy test, it was time to get the official word from the doctor-type people. We went to Kaiser at the first opportunity (the next morning) to take very official blood-tests and medical procedures. We would go into an examination room. Tori would be in one of the gowns that doesn't close in the back. She would be sitting on the butcher paper-covered exam table. A doctor with a beard would come in with glasses down on his nose, and say, "Victorianna Marchese-Blum? Ok. You are pregnant." And Tori and I would break into hysterical fits of laughter and tears and hold each other and we would be parents. Then there would be some sort of parent paperwork that we would fill out to show that we were actually pregnant and we knew it and that we were ready.

They had Tori pee in a cup. It took five minutes. We didn't talk to a doctor. We didn't go in to a room. They sent Tori down the hall to the bathroom with a cup. I didn't even need to be there.

I feel like all of the moments in life that change your life, always feel like something more official should happen. The only thing, so far, that felt too official, was getting a marriage license. That was too much official-ness. But getting into college, graduating from college, getting engaged, and now finding out if we were pregnant. All of them felt like something more official needed to happen.

It was positive, and we found out that day. Tori checked online while I was at work. Where was the doctor coming into the room with his glasses down on his nose? And the gown, and the blood test and the table with the paper on it? Where was the moment where Tori and I got to find out together and hug each other and celebrate? This was the biggest thing that had ever happened to either of us and it all came from a urine sample. It just felt too informal. But again, what do I care? I'm going to be a daddy!

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